See to believe.

I closed my eyes and i closed my ears.

I close my heart , trying not to believe.
Seeing is believing , i've heard.
I've seen , I've felt , I've bled seeing.

Nor the blood grazing my cheek
Nor the throbbing in my ears
Nor the darkness in my eyes
Noting pinches me awake.

Tell me god, in your twisted logic,
Can i not believe if i choose to ?