സംഗീതം

അടഞ്ഞ മനസ്സിന്‍റെ വാതിലുകള്‍ തള്ളിത്തുറക്കുന്ന സംഗീതം. താഴിട്ടു പൂട്ടിയ നിലവറ വാതിലുകള്‍ക്കും മോചനം. അവയിലുറങ്ങുന്ന പൊടിപിടിച്ചതും പൊടി പിടിപ്പിച്ചതുമായ ഓര്‍മ്മകള്‍ക്കും സ്വപ്നങ്ങളുടെ നടുമുറ്റത്ത്‌ ഒരു സൂര്യോദയം കൂടി കാണാന്‍ ഒരവസരം. സംഗീതം മനസ്സിനെ പിടിച്ചുലക്കുന്നത് സ്വര-നാദത്തിന്റെ ശക്തി കൊണ്ടു മാത്രമല്ല , അതുണര്‍ത്തുന്ന ഓര്‍മകളുടെ ആഴം കൊണ്ടുകൂടിയാണ് .

എന്താണെന്നറിയാത്ത , എന്തിനെന്നറിയാത്ത ഒരു ദുഖത്തെ മനസ്സിന്‍റെ ഉള്ളിലെവിടെയോ ഉണര്‍ത്തുന്ന സംഗീതം , അതിന് ഉള്ള ആകര്‍ക്ഷിനീയത മറ്റൊരു തരം സംഗീതത്തിനും ഇല്ല.

" വൈശാകസന്ധ്യേ " http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wcMCxSD0dMU

ഇത്രയും കാവ്യ ഭംഗിയുള്ള മറ്റൊരു പ്രേമ ഗാനവും ഇല്ല. പക്ഷെ ഈ ഗാനത്തിന്‍റെ സംഗീതം നമ്മില്‍ ഉണര്‍ത്തുന്നത് കേട്ടു മടുത്ത പൈങ്കിളി പ്രണയത്തിന്‍റെ ഭാവമല്ല. അര്‍ത്ഥഗര്‍ഭമായ ഒരു വികാരമാണ് . ആ വികാരം എന്താണെന്നു ഇതുവരെ എനിക്ക് മനസിലാക്കാന്‍ കഴിഞ്ഞിട്ടില്ല .. അത് തന്നെയായിരിക്കണം എന്നെ ഈ ഗാനം കേള്‍ക്കാന്‍ പ്രേരിപിക്കുനതും ,അതെ സമയം കേള്‍ക്കുനത്തില്‍ നിന്നും എന്നെ പിന്തിരിപ്പിക്കുനതും..

ചിലപ്പോള്‍ അര്‍ഥങ്ങള്‍ തേടിയുള്ള ഈ ജീവതത്തില്‍ ഒരുനാള്‍ .....

Ravings..

24.Oct.2008.

Irony is : a coin having same sides, and upon tossing it lands on it's edge.

A good Punch line is : Upon hearing you think first and then laugh.

Philosophy is : something everyone has, but never had a name for it.

Good Old times is : Times that u crib about when u had them, but look back later wistfully.

Life is : all the moments that u missed, while u were chasing after life

Love is : someting that those who have it, wants forever
those who never had wants badly
and those who lost it never wants again

Reach out...

3 AM.. in the morning
Exam tomorrow.. at 6 pm
was in the library till 2 Am studying... Bio.. someting i dont really like, coz i cant remember all the stuff that i'm supposed to remeber...

LOg into orkut for some updates on friends, before hitting the bed..

I get surprised, that one of my friends got married!!!!! Damn..

and then i see this.. this picture... I was staring for a long time, taking in what it was showing me, searching for words, searching for thought.. i couldnt quite place the emotions i felt when i saw this.. there were a lot of them.. rushing in... may be it was sadness that topped it all.. a small pricking sadness that pokes at all the things that you had burried somewhere deep.. all those moments in life when you were alone in life and really felt it.. all those moments when you stared at the overcast sky, the faded light and the wind blowing , tihnking about life and thinking about lonliness and thinking about all those things that might bring a tear to your eye..

you just feel like reaching out to touch the lonliness and wipe it away........

Being American

Time : 2.17 am .. US time :D
11.48 Am India..

I know that conversion even in my sleep now a days..

What am i doing Up so late... I dont know..
cant seem to get sleep now-a-days.. ( may be i shud say now-a-nights...)
it's too late , even for a late jet lag.. It's been one month and 5 days..
One month. ? I say that to myself outloud and all i can think is , Damn!! only one month ?
The first week dragged.. The second crawled..( isnt crawling faster than draggin ?)
and i walked a hell lot on the second week... U think how bad is 'a hell lot' ? Lets just say
i had blisters the size of a baseball ( Wot the hell, i'm in america.. i shud blend in , right? ) and
my jeans seemed a few sizes too big (Really!! ) by the end of day one of week two.

Why did i walk that much... Accomodation.. Yeah, i found it..
The only reason i stop myself from having a heart attack, thinking about the rent i pay ,is by thinking about the money that i'd have to spend in a hospital if i do have a heart attack..

And i met a mallu, who didnt want to share my apt ( yeah looking for more ppl.. more ppl.. more fun..less rent :D ) coz one of the guys staying with me is from our neighbouring country..
Mr. Mallu said "it'll be hard if an India-pak war breaks out"
What? Kid, war dosent mean all indians n pakistanis all over the world fight with each other!!!
( yeah, i'm not scared!! I'm bigger than my roomie :D )

And , to buy anything u have to use a calculator to convert the Price to Rupees..
I think i'll get an indigesion thinking that the slice of bread i ate was worth 5 Rs...
( yes single slice )
Now, wait.. I cant have indigesion.. I cant throw up a 5 rs bread Slice.....
And i think i'm gonna stop going through my 'morning Routines'..
That shit is damn costly.. Literally..

Electronics is cheap though.. it's like 2/3 the price..
May be i should start eating those....

What else is there.. that that should be here..
hmm...

Ofcourse... The Haircut...
I kinda like my hair.. I i like that fact that it is up there on my head..
But after getting a haircut i wished i were bald..
500 Rs.. Haircut..And it was the shadiest, lowliest, shabbiest ( read cheapest)
shop i could find..
I hear ppl spend upto 500 $ ( not converting to indian Rs incase i get the dreaded heartattack)

'Cherakkan poo' ennu parayunathu oru theri anenanuu njan vicharichirunathu..

( i cant really transilate that into English without loosing the essence of it... But still ..
"I was thinking 'why dont u go be a barber' was derrogatory.." )
All i could tell the barber ( i dont think i shud really call him that.. may be "his-higness"..) was
"Make it short..really really short..much as you can.... Just dont cut off anyscalp , that's all.... (Yeah... hospital.. otherwise i would have considered ....)

Have u heard that the american economy is receeding ?
U can really tell..
By looking at the way they dress.. especially the girls.. Poor things...


All part of being american ?
i'd rather stay indian..